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So I did end up getting laid off from Advanta. On Feb. 4th at about 10 am, myself and 6 others were called into a meeting where it was made known that our "positions had been terminated." Not really that big of a shock but a little gut wrenching to say the least. We proceeded to our desks and started to pack things up as the rest of the team filed in, everyone started crying. It was awful, then they lead us all downstairs and gave us little packets to sign in order to collect our severance pay. At least there was that, I wasn't expecting any sort of compensation or anything but they gave me 8 weeks of pay which was nice. So there I was, unemployed for the second time in one year. . . at least this time it wasn't because they didn't like me or because I had an "attitude problem" that's one thing I can say I learned from the whole Overstock situation. I definitely learned to carry myself better at work and leave the opinions and attitudes at the door (for the most part) So I was once again cast into the sea of the unemployed. . . nothing can make you feel quite as useless as being unemployed. But, after a week or so I started to really enjoy it. . .having nothing to do and no where to be, no one to answer to, and still getting a pay check every two weeks. It was definitely a much needed dose of freedom. Over the next few weeks I had a few job interviews but nothing really too serious. I wasn't looking too hard at first, after all I was still getting paid. I would get on the computer every morning and surf careerbuilder.com and monster.com for some decent paying jobs and then would commence the daily dose of TV. But my days of rest and relaxation were numbered, I only had 8 weeks. So I finally decided I would get serious and find a job, a friend of mine from Advanta told me his work (Zion's Bank) was hiring and that I should apply. He said it was a detections position so I would be doing pretty much the same job I did for Advanta. So I applied there and I applied at Wells Fargo for a fraud detections position and scheduled interviews all the while still looking for jobs every morning. The morning of March 10th, I get myself a nice cup of coffee and sit down to the computer and start my daily job search. As I'm pulling up my websites I take a drink of my coffee and it surprises me when my nice warm gulp makes it's way back up my throat, "what the hell was that about?" I wondered, pretty odd but I thought maybe I just drank it too fast. So I go about with my day, get all my TV watching in and end up back at the computer that evening. As I'm sitting there messing around on facebook I get the idea "why don't I make me a pot of coffee? I've got nothing to do all night, who says you can only drink coffee in the morning" call it a craving but I just thought it sounded good. I made myself a pot of coffee and played around on the internet, eventually climbing into bed at about 2 that morning. Chance was on night shift and got home around 6 that morning, he came in turned on the light and plopped down a pregnancy test that I had asked him to pick up on his way home the night before. At this point, I had taken so many pregnancy tests because of my irregular periods this wasn't really an uncommon thing for me. I was probably averaging a test or two a month, because with out a period you just really never knew. I had become kind of numb to the whole peeing on a stick process. So Chance puts it down on the ground right by my side of the bed and asks me "do you want to take this now?" Having only 4 hours of sleep by that time I wanted nothing to do with getting out of bed, and I didn't have to pee so I told him no. Then he squats down so his eyes are about level with my head resting on my pillow and he says to me "can I tell you something?" I incoherently oblige. "On my way home I prayed that test would be positive" I was still trying to comprehend what he just said as he goes into the bathroom and pees. Hearing the sound of him peeing made me have to go, so I decided I might as well. With all the coffee I drank the night before and hearing him go, all of a sudden I just really had to go. So I get up out of bed with my eyes barely open and I unwrap the box to the pregnancy tests, I plop down on the toilet and try open my eyes. I had just gone from the dark bedroom to the brightly light bathroom and my eyes were still very tired and hard to open. I open the test and I try in vain to get more pee on the stick than on my hand. At this point I had given up on trying to get my eyes to stay open so I just peed on it and closed my eyes while it did it's thing, still half asleep. I pull it out from under me and wipe it off with a piece of toilet paper, and just sit there with my eyes closed. After a minute I look down at the test expecting to see the usual one line. As I turn it around and look, I see that there are two little pink lines starting to appear, with all the breath i could muster I yelled at the top of my lungs "CHANCE!!!!" he comes rushing in the bathroom and I am just sitting there on the toilet pale, wide eyed and dumbfounded. I hold the test up and Chance drops to the ground in front of me, he grabs my hands and I can just see the tears well up in his eyes. The only sentence I could assemble at that point was "holy shit" I just kept saying it over and over and over again. I'm still not sure how long we sat there in that bathroom crying but it had to be about twenty minutes. We finally gathered ourselves and got back into bed. I still couldn't really fathom what just happened. I laid there just staring at that pregnancy test for at least two hours. I didn't know what to do with myself. I wanted to tell everyone, but it was 6 in the morning. I toyed with the idea of trying to tell them in person but who was I kidding? I wasn't going to be able to keep the news a secret until we could get everyone all in the same place. It was finally a decent hour so I woke chance up and asked him if it was ok if I called my mom. He said he didn't care so I was off, I dialed her number and as it was ringing I walked into the living room. She answered the phone and with my voice shaking with anticipation I told her hi and asked her what she was doing, to which she replied "sitting in traffic" I yelled "MOM!! I'M PREGNANT!!!!" and she started screaming then she cried and asked me if I was sure. I told her I just took a test a couple hours ago and it said yes. we talked for a few more minutes and then I called my Dad. He was at work and he took the news pretty good, it was a pretty mellow conversation filled with "noway"s and some tears. After I got off the phone I woke chance up and told him he had to call him parents. I spent the next week or two just completely and honestly bewildered, with a pit in my stomach and perpetually on the verge of tears. Just entirely and utterly shocked that we were actually going to be someone's parents. A few days later I had interviews at Zion's and Wells Fargo and eventually ended up accepting a position with Zion's. I've worked here for two weeks and so far it's been pretty awesome. I was able to just get right into working because they use all the same systems as Advanta. I walked right in and knew exactly how to do my job so that definitely made the transition as close to seamless as possible. I battle daily with nausea and fatigue but all in all it hasn't been too horrible. I figure I'm about 11 weeks pregnant and due for my first doctor's appointment in 5 days. I can't even explain how nervous/excited I am to hear my child's heartbeat.

It took some where around 1 year 2 months for it to happen but it finally happened. . .